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Place two hands over my chest
Feel like I need to feel a beat
Cause I don’t know what’s next
Feels like every time I take a step
I slip & fall, try & catch my breath
Cause I’ve been working
But it seems like no one sees
I’m nineteen out here chasing dreams
But maybe that’s all it ever was
I mean I made some fuckin progress
But I got a ways to go let’s just be honest
No one wants to see me make it
Cause if I do then all their time was wasted
I mean they hated and they hated
Waited and they waited
For a day like this where I’d finally hit the bottom
Lord I’m not asking for more fake friends cause you know that I got em
I just need the world to see that I got something different
I’m not asking that they agree I’m just asking that they listen
She says “why you always talking like you’re the victim”
Cause I was never the one who was switchin
I stayed true and played my position
While y’all were out poppin without prescriptions

I was in my room making beats hoping one of these rappers were gonna pick ‘em

Look at me; a beautiful contradiction
Talks about love but can’t keep a woman with him
I’m sorry I never amounted to nothin
But I didn’t say I love you just for discussion

Too un-emo to be a part of “The Vent” series… but a verse nonetheless.

Beautiful girls all over the world 

I’m tryna get to know every single one of them 

I used to be a nice guy but stuff happened 

Now I really don’t love none of ‘em 

What they call that? Being a douchebag? 

Well I’m not sure that that’s that bad 

Now I’m thinking about the girls I once had 

Thinking about how it went down makes me kinda mad 

But nobody wants to hear about that so that’s that

What’s that you’re sparking up?

You should pass that  

Been so open with people there’s not a problem I got that no one knows 

Kinda messed up but I guess that’s how it goes

Now all the ones who used to tell me that they love me hate me

She takes a sip looks back at me
She asks me what it is
I take a hit try & forget
Everything it is on my mind
She’s saying “I don’t really get it
I mean you act like you don’t feel
Like what we have ain’t something real”
I say I’m sorry & honestly I am
She wants me to give her all of me
And I don’t know if I can
Cause I been there
Yeah I was nineteen years old
It was December coldest Winter I have ever known
We were kids but spoke like we were grown
Had every intent of going just didnt where were goin
And then it happened
God dammit this can’t happen
How can something feel so right
Then turn to shit so now I’m packin
Everything I ever thought I’d known
I said I don’t know where I’m headed but I’m goin
Since then I haven’t looked back
And now it’s feelings of happiness I lack
Makes it hard to show these females the man that I am
Or I was
I heard stories about love just never happy endings
Maybe it only lasts as long as someone’s spending
Not a dollar but a life that’s slowly ending
The end is always impending
Be careful of these men that you’re befriending
I’m not saying that it’s wrong
I’m just saying they didn’t write you a song
Or buy you a bouquet
You left me in the past
Guess I’m still stuck in yesterday
If I’m something you can’t stand just put this record on play

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I think I finally met my limit 

The Lord taketh and the Lord giveth 

I haven’t smiled in a minute 

I’m on an island; only lonely motherfucker in it 

I hear people saying ‘he talk it but do he really live it’ 

I found a thing called music, God I hope I never lose it 

If there’s one thing I know same way it comes it goes 

I’m not the same as everyone else and everyone knows 

What happens when the light at the end of the tunnel barely glows 

I bleed emotion because heartbreak flows 

I tried giving her everything I could 

But I don’t know if it was everything I should 

I mean if another guy could he would 

I take a shot and text you back like I’m good 

And there you go, everything I had but never did 

And here I go, head in the clouds still a kid 

I told you one day I’ma make it 

Me and you at the top, but you didn’t see it 

And you left now it’s something I gotta live with 

Goodbye to the memories hello to this cold fifth 

I heard stories of love but really it’s just a myth 

Memoir of a kid with a dream and a hole in his heart 

Less good with friends more good with art 

Surrounded by actors I just play my part